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22 November 2009

Impatience is making me lose

You know when you finally come to a point where you realize a major character flaw..in yourself? This occured to me today. See, things have been sort of crazy for me this past month. I have been very academically ignorant (i.e. not doing any work), and partying it up much too frequently. If not partying, then facebooking. I still do not think partying is wrong or anything but it's gotten excessive.

How did I reach this conclusion you might ask? Well, last night I ditched my best friends to hang out with a new friend and a couple of other people in hopes of partying. Then I realized that when I went to get boba with my new friends, I was bored and/or restless. I think, I need to take a step back before I do anything I regret... Plus even B was not in the mood to do anything last night and he is always down for a good time. If B is not down and I am, there is something wrong. Not that he is out of control...apparently, he actually really is!

I just need to be patient with myself and work out, and study and focus for a while. I shoot myself in the foot when I start checking for a progress report of how well I'm doing (see, the impatience is lurking in!). Plus, I lost my temper with J and B last night on the phone..I really should have hung out with them like I had planned...ugh. Mad at myself. Yet, don't want to admit I'm wrong...oh do it!

To new beginnings!

20 November 2009

Community College Kicks the Crap out of 4-years

Thanksgiving is coming up...just creeping up on me! I can't believe it's the 20th already. It seems that time is moving at a faster pace lately. Daylight savings to blame perhaps? Hah. I wish. Nope, life is just sweeping by I guess!

Now, since, I've come to terms with it (okay not really, but who ever does?), I've been thinking what I am thankful for (oh corny thanksgiving Gods, stop!)...

Besides friends and family (who is not thankful for them? really now), and all the other obvious stuff that you should be thinking about e'rrday, I am SUPER thankful for choosing to attend community college.

Yes, I am proud of being a *enter new mascot name here*!

I just registered for second semester and I ended up paying just under $400 for spring semester. After the UC regents hiked up the UC tuition, boy am I happy with my decision. Plus, facebook-complainers really highlight some negatives of going straight to a 4-year. I mean if you are paying THAT much money, shouldn't you get some perks--like being able to get the classes you want? I got priority registration so I am a happy camper hahha. Go Honors Program! Sucks to the rest of ya'll at those huge schools!

Now, I am transferring so I can't totally hate on 4-years. 'Just saying that the lower division general ed. classes really are not worth thousands of dollars. Just saying.

Besides the money, I get smaller classes, get more time to decide what I want to do (at a discounted price!), and I get to stay at home where things are free and mostly done for me.

THANK YOU good decisions of life!

And that is a rap for today's rant of the day :].

10 November 2009

Procrastination and the White Light at the end of the Tunnel

It is 4:38am and I have two cups of coffee and a huge pitcher of water next to me. My lap top is charging and my computer is on. Things are okay now but it was a different story before this moment. Let's recap:

I did everything but study. I watched Two and a Half Men, Desperate Housewives, Family Guy. Took a nap. Took a shower. Watched youtube videos. Did my make up, used too many clown colors at once. Cleaned my room (a little). Cleaned downstairs (a little). Wiped my nail polish off. Ditched Persian class to "study" :(.

^ that is not in any particular order either.

But finally, I looked at my Lit binder. That is the biggest step to overcoming the paralyzing stress of a midterm...look at the material! I finally have all my notes and now I just need to do some reading.

Yes, this is good but I want this to be the LAST time I have to pull an all-nighter. Cheers to that ha-ha...

22 October 2009


It's funny how whenever I have a huge project due, that is when I am most creatively inclined to write something.

..the greatest essays all begin at midnight, right? Let's hope so.

So, I was on facebook and I came across a "note" from one of my previous classmates.

So she was wrote this huge rant about changing of relationships/friendships as we grow up and eventually grow apart. She also wrote about the tiredness from the repetitive nature of college life, which is essentially binge drinking, dancing, having sex, and the drama that ensues after.

What I found most interesting was her complete honesty, especially for a facebook post. I feel exposed even when writing this blog which I'm sure almost no one reads. Yet, I still feel naked about my writing--always over-editing what is a blog, not a damn educational essay.

However, I realized, if I can't be honest when writing a personal blog or journal, then when can I be honest?

Sometimes, a good, long rant can really open up the mind or at least allow for thought-vomit. Sometimes a purge of jumbled thoughts, feelings, and emotions can be quite helpful, not to mention a relief.

Expect more of those.

27 September 2009


It would be great if I didn't have to see my brother everyday. Then I wouldn't have high blood pressure.

Okay. I don't know if I have high blood pressure. Probably not (okay, hopefully not).

26 September 2009

Awooooo ooooh

Coldplay is seriously filling me to the brim. I don't know with what, but I definitely like it. Yellow is a favorite <3

TV Premiers?!?!

This past week a lot of TV shows have premiered and as much as I'd like to watch all of them (seriously, I do.), I know I shouldn't! BUT I have watched a lot of the premieres to know what I want to obsess over this season. Some shows I follow season to season and they won't change...others are new. So here is what I'm loving so far:

Modern Family
The Office
Parks and Recreation?
Grey's Anatomy
Private Practice
Ugly Betty

Crap. So many shows...and my friend thinks I should start watching Big Brother. Where is the time?!

23 September 2009

Stupid stupid creativity

Anything I write, I erase immediately because I feel like I constantly trap myself, creatively. This is getting frustrating.

06 August 2009

My Intentions

The reason I'm creating this blog in the first place is for me to have an outlet for writing, posting up any sketches/photos, reviews/opinions on books and movies, and just to document my college life.

I graduated from high school June 2009 and have already taken summer courses. A College Studies class, two actually, and an intro to humanities course. In fact, I should be reading Nietzsche right now but I dread it!

To be honest, I have too much to do and creating a blog wasn't in the to do list. You'll see procrastination is a problem I deal with, daily...perhaps I can prove myself wrong? So far, no bueno.

I'll try to write at least once a week. For now, I gotta go read.

EDIT: I ended up on facebook. Came back to this. Reread and edited. And am now wondering if I'll ever read Nietzsche. Essay due tomorrow at 6:00pm...why do I do this?!

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